Monday as of now.
So I failed the vision test this morning… maybe it’s the sore throat… maybe lack of purpose…. so yeah I started mulling over the whole situation and it just sortof happened, I broke. WHERE THE HECK IS MY FAITH… it’s as if I lost it… taken it out of my heart and forgoteen where I put it down…
I mean yesterday was such bittersweet beauty. And this morning I am here again…
“Father I need you… I am at a loss without you… your strength, your Strong Tower, I need them all, I need YOU… it says you are the Life… come Dad and bring me Life! Bring me into your chambers and don’t let me escape. I am determined to pour my life out for You… please tell me how to pour… point me into the direction I need to walk…. set my feet steady on Your path of Life. Hold my hand as I walk, the way you know I like… with my arm intertwined with yours, your Hand clasping mine… to be One. When and if I go down, be SO NEAR TO ME…
I will lean on you harder now. I am secure with Who You are for me. You are the Creator God of the Universe, the One who went to the Cross, the one who sent me to Africa, the One who sustained me through the droughts, who led me into abundance, and who takes away. Help me to be content with You taking from me, the clay….”
There is a song playing right now and it along with my writing this has brought sense to the senseless. Listen….
“Eternity has a hold on my heart, Heaven is calling out my name, I am a stranger in this natural life…. THUNDER IN ME…. this voice that I lonnnnnng to hear, THUNDER IN ME…. this love that I long to feel…. THUNDER IN ME….. I am homesick for Heaven.
Take me away… take me away…. the King is drawing me into His chambers…. THUNDER IN ME”
Change my perspective today Dad, let me see through Eyes of Faith!
Wow girl! You just brought tears to my own eyes. Your passion for Christ is amazing.
This waiting period He is bringing you through is to make you stronger for the even bigger and crazier indescribable things He has for you. So continue to wait at His feet looking up into His eyes with eager eyes and a patience yet willing heart.
um…for the first 5 minutes i thought you meant you failed a seeing test. i keep re-reading from the beginning thinking you were gonna say you got glasses or something.
Ok so your under the olive tree having a few cakes and sleeping alittle, then get back to work Nat. we are only here for such a short time……
He is drawing you…yes He is drawing you…oh how I miss you, friend, but I love that He is drawing you in, closer, deeper…