Hello.

Just wanted to say hello. It’s going to be an awesome Easter weekend. The team of HPC has outreached in the community alongside of 200+ churches over the past 7 days doing a little something called SERVOLUTION…..It is such an honor to be a part of something so much greater than ourselves you know?

>>>>>> GREATER>>>>>>>

I like that word. I like a lot of words. I guess you can call me a sortof “words” person, thanks Zinty. I just love the way you can combine random words and make beautiful melodies. Some words are just beauty in themselves. Some just plain jane words are just pure beauty….. when they are connected to your heart in a way that only speaks to you. It’s sortof like how the word “Hand” is to me now or “master”… ones that I hear and immediately they take me somewhere, some place, to HIM.

Nonetheless much has progressed in my life. I am being stretched like putty. Being formed, shaped, fashioned and made. It’s a crazy beautiful combination if I could say so my self. I have NEVER EVER been in a season like the one I am in now. It’s intense, it’s perplexing in multiple ways and keeps me on my toes, knees and face. I just never would have dreamed that I would be here. I never would have placed myself in this spot of the mountain, valley, wherever I am. I definitely would have chose the sunny sandy beach BUT GOD right? But But But…. I am in a constant speaking of “but”. Nothing is more beautiful or lovely than to be where He desires you to be, on every level. It’s strangely uncomfortable and peacefully sustaining in the same moment. How does that happen? Just throw it into the many other paradoxes that come when you serve the One.

“It’s an inside outside upside down Kingdom, where you lose to gain and you die to lose”…….. IHOP, Misty Edwards. She goes on to sing…. “we want to be with you where you are, where you are… your the SERVANT OF ALL…… You got to hide and do it in secret if you want to be seen by God…. and you got to go down if you wanna go up…. and you got to go lower and lower if you wanna go higher and higher>>>>>>>>>Because it’s the INSIDE OUTSIDE DOWN KINGDOM, WHERE YOU LOSE TO GAIN AND YOU DIE TO LIVE……

Oh there is SO MUCH to do, so much>>>> Stengthen me from the inside out Lord. I just want what you want. I need it. There’s no other place my soul longs to be so help me to DIE to myself…. put away Natalie and develop that inner place that longs to go deeper, that longs to be more like you….. SPEAK to my heart…. don’t let me settle, don’t let me compromise, don’t let me settle or become so comfortable of “my places”“places” that I miss the you desire to bring me. USE ME, BREAK ME, MAKE ME!!!!!

Does my heart screaming make this get to heaven any quicker>>>>

AGHHHHHHHHH>>>>>>>>>>>>