She’s got her ticket.

I haven’t been completely real. There is probably a hundred things about Natalie that you don’t know. Or it might just feel like 100! Part of me is swayed by the naysayers whose opinion is for me to keep it all to myself. The other larger part of me can only hear the unrelenting voice that propels me into transparency and vulnerability.

I suppose we are all here at some point. A place where our body feels like a wishbone being tugged by two 5 year olds. Who’s going to win? Which one will end up with the larger piece? I know where my heart wants to end up. And I am sure it will because there is no place like this place I am.

It’s every bit of real this place you know. It’s heart affecting real and that’s why I adore this place so much?  Who wants a  story that is filled with fulfilled desires of consumer living or paty cake relationships that end before beginning. No one likes the likes of those anyway and well if they do then we probably would run out of things to talk about anyhow. Or in the other larger case we would probably not even be drawn to each other in the first place.

It’s terribly hard for me not to be real. It’s just the mind I have. I hear about “masks” that people wear as characters not wanting the role they have been given or even signed up for themselves and I honestly can’t identify. It’s a terrible sadness I am sure but I have my own terrible sadness-es. I have one’s that to me seem to be the end of the world and I am sure to others they would throw their hand back behind their face and say, “ahhhh, that’s nothing”. But to me it’s everything and to the people that wear the masks, it’s everything to them.

And so we are all one in the same so to say. We all have that something or something’s’. We all pray that it goes away but the reality of these things is that they are the exact things that rid themselves of the very power they have over us. It’s not as complicated as I have just said. It’s quite simple. “What we let fester in our hearts begins to lead our hearts” and the only thing that should be leading our lives is Him. Not the masks, the secrets or any other ploys of the Enemy we all are familiar with if we are quiet enough to listen.

I have been challenged here lately to be real. Not so much to you all but to myself. And what has come from it has been the single most liberating happening in my life.

Thanks Truth, let’s talk some more. Bring Realness by too, we have somethings to discuss as well. And do bring lots of Time cause Lord knows these conversations are lengthy.